I will forever be grateful for this amazing gift God has given me. He allowed me to take this journey and gave me this precious angel for a reason. She is the light of my life and I fall more and more in love with her every minute of every day. Nothing can compare to a mother's love. There's no breaking it and there's nothing that can come between it.
Aubrey and I have faced many trials and tribulations in the short time we've had together so far. Probably one of the biggest fears a new mother can have. Turning into a single parent and facing raising a child alone. Although it's pretty much 60% of today's population I never thought I would be part of that percentage. I had it all planned out and just knew it would work out how I dreamed. Wrong again! Aubrey's father made thoughtless decisions throughout our relationship and continued to do so after Aubrey was born. I was brought to the lowest point in my life I never thought I could be. I was very unhappy and lived miserably for too long. Enough was enough and I had to make a decision. A decision that would affect the rest of my life and Aubrey's. I had to better myself and make a good life for Aubrey. I finally realized that it was ok for me to make myself happy for once. I could breathe again and I could smile. My babygirl kept me going. Someone from my past reappeared and helped me see light again as well. Unfortunately, we were both going through some of the same hell bent trials life throws at us. The ones you can't seem to comprehend and continue to ask why me. I thought I was alone and no one knew what I was going through. I thought smiling and love was just a fantasy and just make believe. Wrong again! Smiles have become constant and my heart is slowly being sewn back together. It's amazing how some people can have that effect on your life with out them knowing. Call my crazy but sometimes the presence of a certain someone can be the priceless medication you've been needing. God has a plan for everyone. He takes and places people in your life for a reason. We wont know why and can only appreciate what we are given. I will forever be grateful for this person returning into my life, regardless if its for a short or a long period of time. They taught me what being loved felt like. They taught me how to smile and to laugh again. They gave me butterflies and the okay to let my guard down. Things I've been longing for for soo long. They taught me to believe again.
I've become a stronger person and have learn to " Have a Little Faith!" in these last 10 months. I have a huge heart full of love that is dying to be shared. Don't get me wrong. My daughter makes me happier than I've ever been and I love her more than anything. She is my main concern in life. The love for a child and the love for a significant other are two totally different kinds of love. You will always have the love and want from your child, but you also need to have the love and want from a lover. The ability to share a love everyone has always dreamed out.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4
I believe this person is out there for me and actually not very far away. I want to give this person everything they've ever dreamed of. I want to comfort and try to ease whatever pain they may have. I want to leave a continuous smile on their face and reassure them that true love does exist. Life can take that all away from you in the blink of the eye when you aren't with the one you are supposed to be with. THE ONE does exist. It's a feeling that just happens and its hard to explain. It overwhelms your entire being and relaxes you. When you are with that person all your worries fade away and the world stands still. It takes your breath away and makes you want to be a better person. You can look at the person and not say a single word and let them know what you are feeling. Love doesn't run, it doesn't hide, it won't turn away or back down from a fight. You will just know!
I've never been one to accept advice but I can honestly say that I believe in myself now. I know I'm making the right decisions and I know I have a life of happiness and love waiting for me. Believe in yourself and Have a Little Faith! Your life is what you make of it! Don't forget to smile because someone could be falling in love with your smile!
His glorious power will make you patient and strong enough to endure anything, and you will be truly happy! Believe!
